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I need to talk, I need to share what I have been going through this past week. Right now I am so thankful to have this blog as an outlet.


Last Monday my dad died. His death was a SHOCK to say the least. It was devastating and the most traumatic experience I have ever had to deal with.
My dad and I were very close,we spent alot of time together each day, my children ADORED him. My 2 younger sisters still live at home, they are 20 and 14. My stepmother had been married to him for 24 years.

Life seemed great for all of us until Monday morning.

We got a call that my dad was not at work, he was not answering his cell phone and it had been 2 hours since he left for work. I must have called his cell about 25 times in a one hour period.
No Answer.
To make a very painful story short, my uncle came to the house at 8:00AM on Monday morning and told us that my dad had jumped off of a bridge. He took his own life. He was gone. No warning, no signs,no good-byes. Complete SHOCK.
None of this will ever make sense, it will never be better and I am certain I will NEVER get over this completely.
I will talk more later, right now I am just asking for your prayers.

my dad

We lost my dad this past Monday.
Today we laid him to rest.
He was 53 years old.
His death was senseless.
His death was sudden and a complete shock.
He left behind a wife, 3 daughters and 2 grandchildren.
This is all I can share for now.
Please keep my family in your prayers.

my dad died today...i will be away for a whle

My little sunshine

She surprised me with this. (with a little help from her uncle, my "little" bro)

My terrible horrible no good very bad day!

(Ever read that book to your children? It's a good one!)

Do you ever have a day that just cannot end soon enough? Today is THAT DAY!

3AM: Camden wakes up screaming,"Momma,my ear!"I go into his room to find him burning up and crying in pain. We spend the next 3 hours with him, trying to calm him and settle him down.

6AM: We decide that we all might as well get up, we've been awake for hours! I go to brush my teeth &realize my toothbrush is in the trash bin. GROSS! Hannah claims she had nothing to do with it, I am not so sure. The only extra new toothbrush I can find is a baby toothbrush, so I use it.

The next few hours are a blur of crying toddlers and a cranky preschooler who thinks she isn't getting enough attention!

11:30AM: At the doctor...Camden has a double ear infection. His 3rd ear infection in 5 months.I know it isn't my fault,but I feel so bad!

I know that the pharmacy is very slow so I decide to wait to pick up antibiotics.
Camden is so sick all afternoon, he wants to be held, then wants to be left alone, he's thirsty, he's not...ugh!

4 hours later...I go to pick up the meds and guess what? They still aren't ready! OMG I wanted scream!!! 45 minutes later we left the store with our meds...too bad I forgot to buy myself a toothbrush!

6 PM:I make the kids mac and cheese,b/c it's what they want and I am in no mood to argue with a sick 2 year old and a PMSing 4 year old. I turn around from the table to answer the phone and when I return...Hannah has the macaroni mushed into her glasses!!!
She is seriously this jealous when Cam is sick..anything for attention!

6:30PM: Hannah shows me her glasses,they have a chip in them,WTH!!!! We just got these new lenses on Saturday!

I am so DONE with this day!!

Not Me Monday!

Finally...I remembered Not Me Monday!


If you don't know about it, go check it out at Mckmama's blog!

Here is my list...of things I "DID NOT" do!
*I did not let my children eat 3 popsicles,cake and an ice cream cone all within 2 hours of each other yesterday. This was NOT a huge mistake! They certainly did not have a sugar high followed by major sugar meltdowns! NOPE NOT US!

*I did not secretly wish I would get the 2 beads for my Pandora bracelet that I wanted for Mothers Day. (To my pleasant suprise I DID get them...for real!
YAY!)

*Camden did not spend 20 minutes playing in a sandbox they had set in in Old Navy on Saturday. I did not need a break from his two year old ways for a few minutes!

*I didn't forget that I was supposed to return movies on Saturday, it is now Monday and I do not owe 2 days worth of late fees on 2 really bad movies!

Family Night

Well,now that I am over the trauma of my husband chopping off Camden's gorgeous baby curls,(see post below), I can focus on our family time tonight. Things have been so crazy the last few weeks and I really wanted to spend some time as a family, just hanging out at home. So tonight we have having pizza and movie night. Not only are we going to eat piza for dinner....we are going to have a picnic in the living room! (Now I know you are jealous!)
I went to movie store to find a family movie and this is what I got:

I hope this doesn't feed into the whole "we want a dog" phase my children are in. Sorry kids, it's NOT going to happen!
I am really looking forward to some family time. There is nothing better than snuggling up with pillows and blankets and watching a movie together!

O.M.G.!!!

Sick in bed.

Tissues? CHECK
Chapstick? CHECK
Orange Juice? CHECK
Chicken Noodle Soup? CHECK
NyQuil? CHECK
Cough Drops? CHECK
My cozy bed? CHECK
An empty seat at the Red Sox game tonight b/c I am sick in bed? CHECK GRRRRRRRR!!!

Hopefully things will be looking up by tomorrow!

My Little Ballerina

Hannah did an amazing job at her recital! We were so proud of her. Her dance was the LAST one of the show. She was dancing at 9 o'clock at night. (The girl is usually asleep at 7:30!) And...yes,that is a huge scratch on her nose. I picked her up from preschool Friday and the teacher told me another child had scratched her. NICE!
Here a some pictures from her weekend! I also have some videos to post...maybe tomorrow!






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A day to RELAX!

3 Recitals and a VERY sick 2 year old this weekend. It was a long one! We are using today as a regrouping day. Hannah did an amazing job at her recitals! I will be back with pictures tonight~